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Randy Baltzell
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Cindie WoodSaturday,
September 26, 1992
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Our annual camp meeting was just beginning in July 1990,
and I was downstairs in one of the shower rooms getting ready.
One of my friends came downstairs and said, with a big smile
on her face, “my brother is waiting upstairs to talk to you.”
Since I had only talked to him in passing, I was extremely
curious. I took as long as I could French-braiding my hair,
and then slowly headed upstairs. Sure enough, Randy Baltzell
was sitting there waiting. We made small talk for a minute
and then he asked me if I would want to go out after our camp
meeting concert on Monday night. I made it clear, “only as
friends.” That was the beginning of our courtship.
Randy was playing in the concert, and as I anxiously waited
for it to be over, I was a bundle of nerves. I had talked
to Randy in passing a few times, but other than the fact that
I thought he was good looking and he loved to drink milk,
I knew very little about his personality. What were we going
to talk about? Well, we were double-dating, so at least I
wouldn’t have to worry too much. Little did I know that Randy
had been concerned about the same thing and had been planning
conversation topics in his mind all day! Things went smoothly
and there was no lack of conversation. We went out again a
few days later, and I was amazed at all that we had in common.
Finding God's will in this situation was very important to
me. I had repented of my sins and asked Jesus into my heart
at six years of age. I was sanctified about one year after
I was saved. Since that time I had stayed close to Jesus through
prayer and reading my Bible. This camp meeting, I had determined
to not be distracted by things around me, but to draw even
closer to the Lord. I needed my baptism and was determined
to sit in the front and make the most of every altar service.
When Randy asked me out, a lot of questions came to the surface.
I did not take dating lightly and I did not want to head into
a relationship that was against the Lord’s plan for my life.
I knew that Randy was a Christian, so that was a very good
start.
Randy and I lived many miles apart, so we wrote lots of letters
and kept the phone company in business. When we got the chance
to be together, we loved to just “do nothing:” take walks
in the park, play a game together or just sit and talk. We
found that we had the same goals in life. Number one was,
we both wanted a Christian home. The more I was around Randy,
the more I wanted to be around him. We enjoyed each other’s
company. The problem was, it became harder to separate my
feelings for him from what was right. This road I was heading
down was a commitment for life and I did not want to base
my judgment only upon feelings. All of the fireworks were
there when Randy and I were together, but was that going to
be enough to carry us when times were tough?
Because I wanted to know God’s plan for my life, or at least
the next step I should take, I realized that I needed to really
know God first. I began to seek Him in prayer and make sure
that my heart was in order. I wanted to make sure that there
was nothing between the Lord and I, so that I could be clear
on who He wanted me to marry. In August of that year, I received
the baptism of the Holy Ghost. With the Holy Spirit in my
life, things were so much clearer to me. I did not get an
audible voice from Heaven that told me, “You shall marry Randy
Baltzell.” But I did get an answer way down, deep in my heart,
and that has not left me. The key thing I noticed when I prayed
about our relationship was that the Lord was very close to
me. The communication between the Lord and I did not get more
distant as our relationship progressed, but became more clear.
The morning of June 3, 1992, I was in Medford, Oregon visiting
Randy. Unbeknownst to me, a call was made to my dad, asking
for my hand in marriage. We had talked all around getting
married many times, without actually saying it. That night
after church, we started home to his family’s house. Randy
gassed up the car and then turned around and headed back to
the church! We went in and he sat down at the piano, and began
to play a song that he had written for me a few months before.
He asked me to sit, and I began to get suspicious and wondered
what was next? He handed me his Bible and asked me to look
up a verse that we had shared together. As I turned to the
Scripture, out came an engagement watch. It was then that
he asked me, “Will you marry me?” At that point, there was
no hesitation, I readily said, “yes!”
I thank the Lord daily for the life he has given me with
Randy. I know that the only reason we have peace and harmony
in our home today is because the Lord has led us thus far.
We have loads of fun serving the Lord together!
I knew who I wanted to ask out at camp meeting 1990, but
I wasn’t sure of the response I would get. I knew her very
little—only that she was quiet and seemed shrouded in mystery.
I was 20; she was 18. She came from a very close and secure
family. Beyond that, I didn’t know much. But I got my nerve
up, and she agreed to go out with me “as friends.” “Sure,”
I said, all the while thinking, “Only friends?” I had other
plans.
It was a double first date at the Red Lion on the Columbia
River after “concert night.” After that date, I was even more
intrigued by this young lady who seemed to have it all together
and seemed to know exactly what she wanted out of life. She
was quiet, but confident. It was enough to unnerve a guy.
I was trying hard to come off cool and in control. I didn’t
feel like I was pulling it off very well. She didn’t show
a lot of gushy emotion, and seemed to have her feet on the
ground. She was polite and friendly, but it seemed to me that
she was hiding a secret that only she knew. Yes, this only
intrigued me more.
(I was to find out later that she really wasn’t hiding a secret,
but was as nervous as I was.) She was beautiful that night.
I liked how she looked, but I also liked the quiet, strong
spirit she possessed. It was that “something” within her that
seemed to draw me to her the most—I still appreciate
that about her today.
I hesitated over the next few days at camp, praying earnestly
about how far to pursue this relationship. I had enjoyed our
first date, and if it was up to me, I would have called it
a success. I was guessing and hoping that she felt the same
way. I wanted the Lord’s will so badly, not wanting to get
something started that either of us would regret, or that
the Lord did not want. My poor date wondered what had happened
to me, because we didn’t go out again for several days—
with no explanation of why, but I didn’t know what to say
to her. I knew that I had to be sure before God, so I just
kept praying and seeking Him. I had been saved two years before
this and sanctified one year before—I did not yet have
my baptism, but I was enjoying the Lord’s blessings! I was
becoming more excited about the Gospel all the time. We had
been enjoying good prayer services in Eureka, and I had been
thrilled with what God had put in my heart. I was just enjoying
walking with Him and feeling His presence.
It was important to me to marry the person God wanted me
to marry. I didn’t know what lay ahead in my path, but I knew
that if I married with God’s approval, we could withstand
any test or problem that may come our way, and answer any
calling He might put on our lives. If the rest of our life
together crumbled, but we knew we had sought the Lord’s will
from the beginning, He would hold us up. If I did not follow
Him from the beginning, I knew that I might gain all the goods
of this world and still end up with a mess.
It was during a prayer meeting at that same camp meeting
that the Lord reminded me of a few months before, when I had
asked Him to direct my feelings and my heart because I didn’t
trust myself. He let me know that the feelings and interest
I had in Cindie was the result of Him directing my heart.
He gave me a confidence that night that I had His approval
to pursue a relationship with her. Sometimes we get in our
own way, trying so hard to find God’s will. That was what
I was doing—not realizing that God was leading me all
the while. When we are consecrated to Him, and we truly desire
God’s way, He is faithful to direct our paths. We must simply
allow Him to lead us. With that confidence in my heart, I
went and found her after a prayer meeting and asked her out
again, with a box of Ritz Crackers in my hand! Not very classy,
but she readily agreed, and from there it went full steam
ahead.
We went out a couple of times in the next two days before
she had to go back home to Woodlake, California. We began
to write and call immediately, and we were both a little surprised
at how easy it was to talk and relate to one another. I would
try to be as creative as I could with my letters, trying to
think of all the ways I could to tell her I loved her. After
a while, the letters just weren’t enough. I only wanted to
be with her. We didn’t know anything about each other, yet
we found we had a whole lot in common, and we were to find
over the next several months that we felt the same way about
the Gospel, family, friends and valued the same things in
life. It was always easy to be together. We just enjoyed each
other’s company. We became close friends, and after a few
months, I felt there was no one else I would rather do anything
with. It was always encouraging to be with Cindie; it was
always a positive time when we were able to be together. When
we were together, we didn’t need to have anything planned.
We just loved to be together. We lived about 600 miles apart,
I was in Eureka, California, and Cindie was in Woodlake. I
would visit her family as often as I could and it ended up
that we would see each other about one weekend every four
to five weeks. That was okay at first, but after a few months
passed, that wasn’t even close to being enough—yet it
would have to be. We were both attending college and working
part time where we lived. I realized that other couples had
seen less of each other while dating, but somehow, that didn’t
make me feel any better. The moment I would leave the Cindie’s
family home after a visit, I was mentally making plans to
go back—all ten hours of driving I would plan.
The day finally came when we both felt it was time to get
married. Long distance relationships can be very strenuous.
We had grown to love each other deeply while becoming best
friends. It was hard to be apart, but we had the blessing
of knowing God was in this relationship. It was easy to pray
and seek God during this time. I felt God’s hand with us.
I had moved to Medford with my family in March of 1992, and
on June 3, I proposed to Cindie in Medford. I had written
a song on the piano during our courtship that reminded me
of her, and had recorded it and sent it to her. I played it
often, and she played the tape often. On the night of June
3 when everyone had left the church after a service, we went
back. The lights were out in the sanctuary except one that
shone on the piano, and there, I played her song as she sat
next to me. I had my Bible and asked her to look up a verse
in Isaiah that we had often shared. When she opened the Bible
to that verse, an engagement watch was between the pages,
and I asked her to marry me. She said she would love to. That
sounded mighty good to me!
Randy
and Cindie Baltzell are still happily married and now have
three children. They live in Van Buren, Arkansas where Randy
is the pastor of the Apostolic Faith Church.
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